May be it took realizing that you could die to keep you from wanting to do it.

“I had the heart of the relationship, and no body to grow it in... It broke. ”

“[I] don't think I was trying to kill myself. I just wanted to hurt, and underst…”

“I had come to see, too, that all my characters and I were motivated by the same…”

“I told myself that if I didn't care, this wouldn't have hurt so much - surely t…”