Person describes himself throughout life. To know oneself perfectly means to die.

“There was a time when I didn’t at any minute have the slightest idea how I coul…”

“There are many causes for a suicide, and generally the most obvious ones were n…”

“I cannot stand the company of men. They flatter or they judge. I can stand neit…”

“But - I cannot make a choice. I have my own sorrow, but I suffer with him, too;…”