You don't serve God by saying: the Church is ineffective, I'll have none of it. Your pain at its lack of effectiveness is a sign of your nearness to God. We help overcome this lack of effectiveness simply by suffering on account of it.

“We lost our innocence in the Fall, and our turn to it is through the Redemption…”

“The truth does not change according to our ability to stomach it.”

“Grace changes us and change is painful".”

“I have tried imagining that the single peacock I see before me is the only one …”