The only advice I can give you is what you're telling yourself. Only, maybe you're too scared to listen.

“Nothing is done entirely for nothing. Nothing is wasted. You are older, and you…”

“I am hope.”

“And then, in a skittering, chittering rush, it came. The hand, running high on …”

“It was the size of an ox, of a bull elephant, of a lifetime. It stared at them,…”