She wasn't blotto, she was plotting.

“One of my teachers told me I was a nihilist. He meant it as an insult but I too…”

“Emptiness and boredom: what an understatement. What I felt was complete desolat…”

“How the fuck else am I going to get any attention in this place?"Lisa always ca…”

“Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to …”