He can't live with knowing the future and not being able to save anyone.

“Going to work just looked crazy. Eating another meal, ever, made about as much …”

“the disinhibition caused by said brain damage, can also spur the infected indiv…”

“Crying is right at hand in the smothering dark, closed inside someone else, whe…”

“No, we love war.War. Starvation. Plague. They fast-track us to enlightenment.“I…”