Ms.Mutou-
I was told to write a last will, but…
But even if I had possessions that were worth passing on, I have no family to give them to,
So I wrote a letter to you, like always..
I never could have imagined how shocked I’d been…
When I first saw you at the prison.
The truth is, I’d been looking for you.
On that day that my brother died and I was left alone,
Even you disappeared from the television screens…
I looked for you…
I looked and looked…
But I couldn’t find you…
I’d forgotten about it…
So when I saw you here at the prison…
I thought that perhaps…
God truly did exist…
Thanks to the Thursday that I spent with you,
I knew for the first time how it felt to be happy.
It was something I couldn’t obtain living by myself…
It felt like I understood why people live their lives mingling with others…
I won’t put a brave front…
And tell you to forget about me, and live your life without letting your past hold you back…
I want you to remember me.
Just you-…
That there was a little person like me…
You told me once that even though there was someone you hated enough to want to kill, you were afraid to do it and stopped.
I don’t think that you stopped because you were afraid, but rather that you were brave.
If I had also done so…
Perhaps I could have said to you the word that I could never say…
Words…
That I haven’t said once…
Not since I was born…
Probably…
Ever since then…
Ever since then…
I’ve loved you…
Live.
Even if it’s only for a day…
And please find a way…
To be happier than anyone else…

Autore: Mizu Sahara