That's what humanity is: a series of successes and failures, a testing of one's own nature and aptitude. Neither the body nor the soul can sustain such a state. Eventually it consumes a person

“No, I thought. Not just Hell. Really, Heaven was just as guilty. What kind of g…”

“Setting out around midnight, I couldn't help shaking my head, "We're the goddam…”

“There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be with someone,” I said diplomatically. …”

“Mikhail had come striding towards us with guardian efficiency, ready to find ou…”