And I have the others in me. Even when I’m far away from them, I am forced to live with them. Even when I’m all alone, crowds surround me. I have no place to flee to, unless I were to flee from myself.
Fernando PessoaToday, suddenly, I reached an absurd but unerring conclusion. In a moment of enlightenment, I realized that I'm nobody, absolutely nobody. When the lightning flashed, I saw that what I had thought to be a city was in fact a deserted plain and, in the same sinister light that revealed me to myself, there seemed to be no sky above it. I was robbed of any possibility of having existed before the world. If I was ever reincarnated, I must have done so without myself, without a self to reincarnate.
I am the outskirts of some non-existent town, the long-winded prologue to an unwritten book. I'm nobody, nobody. I don't know how to feel or think or love. I'm a character in a novel as yet unwritten, hovering in the air and undone before I've even existed, amongst the dreams of someone who never quite managed to breathe life into me.
I'm always thinking, always feeling, but my thoughts lack all reason, my emotions all feeling. I'm falling through a trapdoor, through infinite, infinitous space, in a directionless, empty fall. My soul is a black maelstrom, a great madness spinning about a vacuum, the swirling of a vast ocean around a hole in the void, and in the waters, more like whirlwinds than waters, float images of all I ever saw or heard in the world: houses, faces, books, boxes, snatches of music and fragments of voices, all caught up in a sinister, bottomless whirlpool.
And I, I myself, am the centre that exists only because the geometry of the abyss demands it; I am the nothing around which all this spins, I exist so that it can spin, I am a centre that exists only because every circle has one. I, I myself, am the well in which the walls have fallen away to leave only viscous slime. I am the centre of everything surrounded by the great nothing.
And it is as if hell itself were laughing within me but, instead of the human touch of diabolical laughter, there's the mad croak of the dead universe, the circling cadaver of physical space, the end of all worlds drifting blackly in the wind, misshapen, anachronistic, without the God who created it, without God himself who spins in the dark of darks, impossible, unique, everything.
If only I could think! If only I could feel!
Let's absurdify life, from east to west.
Let us play hide-and-seek with our consciousness of living.
Primeiro estranha-se. Depois entranha-se".
Fernando PessoaAll I’ve ever done is dream. That, and only that, has been the meaning of my existence. The only thing I’ve ever really cared about is my inner life. My greatest griefs faded to nothing the moment I opened the window onto my inner self and lost myself in watching.
I never tried to be anything other than a dreamer. I never paid any attention to people who told me to go out and live. I belonged always to whatever was far from me and to whatever I could never be. Anything that was not mine, however base, always seemed to be full of poetry. The only thing I ever loved was pure nothingness.
Stichwörter: dream
A vida é a hesitação entre uma exclamação e uma interrogação. Na dúvida, há um ponto final.
Fernando Pessoaالوضع الراهن للاكينونة
Fernando Pessoaكم سيكون سهلا أن أبتعد عن هذا الضجر لو كنت أمتلك ببساطة قوة الرغبة في الابتعاد عنه بالفعل.
Fernando Pessoaسأحس بكل اشتياقي
لكن ما الذي تعنيه الاشتياقات أمام المعارج الكبرى؟
عمر الخيام كانت له شخصية معينة، أما أنا فلا أملك لحسن الحظ أو لسوئه، أي شخصية على الاطلاق، ما أكونه في لحظة معينة، أنفصل عنه في اللحظة الموالية، ما كنته ذات يوم، أنساه في اليوم الذي يليه. لا يشبه عمر الخيام إلا ذاك الذي يعيش في عالم واحد، هو العالم الخارجي. أما من هو مثلي فيحيا في عالم داخلي متعاقب متنوع. وحتى لو رغب في أن تكون له نفس فلسفة عمر الخيام فلن يستطيع ذلك حتما،
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