Maybe we all have a dark place inside of us, a place where dark thoughts and darker dreams live, but it doesn't have to become who we are.
Mary E. PearsonTags: darkness personality
I have been known to think outside of all rules. Even my own.
Ashly LorenzanaTags: individuality perception thinking originality ideas rules personality uniqueness thoughts free-thinking
Journey gives us a chance to start all over again and be a new personality
Dian NafiTags: journey chance personality mesir
This new co-consciousness brought me to a state of awareness in which my core personality was directly able to experience "her" personality. Being co-conscious with her, he explained, would stop me from experiencing the feeling of leaving my body or dissociating.
Suzie BurkeTags: personality awareness presence dissociation ritual-abuse multiplicity dissociative-identity-disorder derealization satanic-ritual-abuse dissociative consciosness multiple-personality
Denial returned, like a nagging cough you can never quite shake. Actually, it was always close at hand, and even though "satanic ritual abuse" did describe what had happened to me when I was a child. the concept was so foreign and so horrific that some part of me still wanted to stay in denial.
Devil worship dominated my childhood. That was undeniable, even if it was still nearly impossible to contemplate. Both of my parents and any number of their friends, as well as "respected" members of our community, had worshipped Satan.
I pushed the notion aside with all the power I could muster. I kept thinking to myself that it was ridiculous and impossible.
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Tags: consciousness devil denial satan personality awareness presence dissociation child-abuse ritual-abuse multiplicity dissociative-identity-disorder horrific derealization satanic-ritual-abuse dissociative multiple-personality devil-worship
I honestly didn't believe I could bear any more suffering. I was convinced that the child within me was just too young to endure all this, much less understand it. She just wanted to be normal. But another part of me knew that to become normal, all the pieces of this puzzle had to become conscious.
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Tags: consciousness personality awareness presence dissociation ritual-abuse multiplicity dissociative-identity-disorder derealization satanic-ritual-abuse dissociative multiple-personality
I'm back in the basement of the Ascension Catholic Church, Francisco. And Little Suzie is here. She's lying on an alter, and they're hurting her. The bastards. They're hurting her. There is blood all over the place. There are candles burning and people chanting." I could hardly believe what I was seeing and I cried out, "What is this? I don't understand. What the hell is this?"
"Ask your unconscious mind to tell you, Suzie," he responded, ever so gently. "Ask."
I did ask. And the answer swept over me with a force so strong that I felt as if I had been knocked backward.
"Lord! Oh, Lord. This is satanic ritual abuse, Francisco. That's what this is! That's what this is!" I screamed. "Satanic ritual abuse. And they're using Little Suzie as part of their goddamned ritual.
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Tags: memory ritual personality dissociation child-abuse trauma ritual-abuse abuse dissociative-identity-disorder satanic-ritual-abuse dissociative multiple-personality
On its own, my internal dissociated part now came to the surface, and I found myself hiding from everyone. I still was not connecting it to the dream I'd had. At one time I had thought I could control these sudden episodes, but I was apparently mistaken. I had grown very unsure about every facet of my mental health. A disturbed part of me was taking over and I was terrified. I began to wonder if Big Suzie would completely cease to exist.
Suzie BurkeTags: consciousness personality awareness presence dissociation multiplicity dissociative-identity-disorder multiple-personality-disorder dissociative
Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is what is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or person who explained it to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening . . . Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.
Alice WalkerTags: pain change spirituality growth depression personality
The art of biography is more difficult than is generally supposed.
Thornton WilderTags: art difficulty personality
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